i dunno if you will be reading my blog, reading this, however, i still feel that i wanna express how i realli feels now~~
just have a good talk with one of my kors~~
realised how selfish and foolish i was~~
i was selfish in making you ' my property' when i cant forget him.
i was foolish in believing that i can forget bout him and be with you all my heart~~
but i was wrong~~
each time he appears, my heart aches and past just came flowing back into my mind,
i know i am selfish, i am with you and i am still bloody hell thinking of that person that really hurt me.
i can say that i am stupid to thinking of someone who hurt me so deeply and i know now i might be hurting you too.. ..
i am sorry to hurt you~~
i can only say that i am still not mature enuf~~~
i have passed all my academic modules with A's and B's or at least a C, but then i think i realli failed 2 modules which is called BGR and LOVE~~~
and i failed them with a F~~
i think that the thing that i have to do now is to clear my mind and maybe retake the modules when i am ready... ...
maybe til that time, i might pass and no one will get hurt anymore~~
i need time to sort out all my thoghts and also that i think we need to also have some breathing and cool down time for the 2 of us~~
P.S, hope that you will not get hurt and will lead a happier life with out me~~
P.P.S, we will still be friends and buddies~~

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